Can I do it? Yes I can!

I got up this morning, I won’t say woke up I think you have to sleep first before waking up.  I put some towels on (washing that is) and got dressed to go on my cycle ride.  The day is just beautiful, sunny and still.  I thought I should be able to whip through the ride easy.

Well boy was I mistaken.  I started cycling and 1 block up I was ready to come home.  I was having a tough time my body just protested.  I felt tired and unfit, like when I started this journey.  Let me take you back a bit before we progress to the tired and unfit comment.

Being the holidays the routines are all out and we try to do things with the kids so take them to the park or to some event.  Anyway as we are out we might grab an ice cream or even a meal.  Due to this my eating has not been as diligent as it should and my water consumption has been real low.  Well not as bad as it could be only because I realise I have only had two glasses for the day so make it up in the late afternoon and evening.  Being the holidays too we have been going to bed later and I mean late last night was close to 12am which you will have seen from last nights blog.  The kids have not slept well so keep getting into our bed.  Dayna wriggles and kicks and Isaiah snuggles so I get disturbed and hot.  I also have to wake for the loo due to drinking lots of water late in the day.

Anyway yesterday was a shocker for food so after my late night Jam I weighed myself knowing it would be high but wanted to compare for the morning.  I have gained 100g from last Monday.  This made me want to cry.  I am tired and have PMS (sorry TMI).  So all in all my mind is not in a good place.

I was cycling away and could just feel the strain of it all.  It was as tough as the day I cycled with the 150kmh winds.  Even the thought of our $24million (they just announced it is now $25mil) win in lotto tonight didn’t help the ride.  I wanted to give up so many times. Well at least cut it short.  It was only a 30min ride and yet at 20mins I was ready to go home.

Well I hate failing so kept going and then tried to think through it and find some reason to keep going.  Well I started thinking of my sister.  She was to race in the Crater Rim triathlon tomorrow but had a sports injury and has been told by the physio she can’t do it or will cause some damage that could take months to repair.  I know this was the big race she has been training for and is really ‘gutted’ she can’t follow through.  She is now looking ahead and changing focus to something she can now train for.  Well here I am wanting to quit because I can’t be bothered and here my sister is having to rest due injury.  No comparison really.  I just have to keep going or I would be a wimp in comparison (my words). This is food for the soul.

Well I got home still not feeling better and still tired and wanting to let the flood gates open but can’t for some reason.  Spoke to soon. lol.  Don’t know where my head is but I have a small achievement and completed my training programme for today and have had 3 glasses of water.  So all in the right direction.

The crazy thing.  I was all keen on my rest day to work but wasn’t meant to and today I would have loved the rest day but didn’t.

Well the car needs washing, need to finish tidying the garage, that will complete the Spring Clean.  Unfortunately there are things to give people we know but won’t see them till next week so the garage isn’t as tidy as we would like.  Due to others bit and pieces.

Tomorrow is a run day and the lawns need mowing.  I have 22hours to fix the mind and hopefully the body will follow.  Thanks Anita for the soul food.  My best wishes are with you as the regroup.